Dilations 2, 3, 4, 5 and Douching #1

5PM, 9PM, 2AM, and 7AM. Dilation #2 at 9PM was my first solo. Remember everything I was told: “Keep your hands down, weight on your back foot, let the clutch out slowly.” I may be a little bit confused. Actually, the three most important things are relax, relax, relax; when you feel resistance, relax some more. For this reason, the 2AM dilation was the best of the bunch. Although I had to be woken up for it, I was very relaxed. What’s dilation like? Hard to compare it to anything else I’m familiar with. I can say that it leaves me with a dull ache in the center of my being. A warm, moist washcloth, or a warm water bottle after dilation helps everything to relax. Yes, relaxing is the key for me!

Part of the dilation process has you smearing Surgilube onto the stent (we’re calling stent #1 “Junior”). Instead of wiping the lube from my finger to a paper towel I’ve started applying this extra to my vagina. What an interesting feeling. So far the inside of my vagina doesn’t have much feeling, but to my finger it feels nice and soft, just like a vagina should. Somewhat gross is the fact that my finger always comes out with some “gunk” (use your imagination). For that reason I’d been looking forward to my first douching, hoping it would flush out the gunk. I guess it helped, but not as much right away as I had hoped. I guess I need to be content with a little improvement everyday. How did the douching feel? It also left me sore.