Yesterday and Today

Yesterday Michele and I ventured out for lunch, my first time out of the hospital. In my opinion it was a disaster. I was completely uncomfortable, emotionally and physically, and it completely wiped me out. In many ways I feel like I failed a test. This whole thing has turned out to be physically more demanding than I expected. I figured that I’m in really good shape from my bike riding and rock climbing and I’d have a decent time of it. Turns out no. So, I think this has brought me down emotionally.

Last night I slept very poorly. It hardly ever felt like I was truly asleep. And when I did sleep I kept having bizarre dreams. I should have asked for a sleep aid.

Today is a big day. Today my sutures and packing come out and I start my dilation. Check out those stents! They come in a very nice terry cloth pouch with a separate compartment for each stent. I like the way they kinda glow from the camera flash. The one the right I call “Big Max”. I’m not sure that will ever go into me!

Every day, a new adventure. I wonder when it will all feel like me.