Why???

For a few weeks now I've been telling you all about myself and my plans for genital reconstruction surgery. However, I've never addressed the fundamental question "Why?" Why go through the expense, pain, and risk for something that is not medically necessary? Obviously, many never do. If you ask six T*s this question you are likely to get at least six reasons in return. I have many friends who absolutely abhor their penis, who refuse to look at it or touch it and refer to it as "the birth defect between my legs." I've never felt this way. For others, it's actually a matter of survival; life with a penis is not a life they want to endure. That's not my motivation, either. For me it's a question of body comfort and body image. I'm a woman, but I'm currently a woman with a penis. What's wrong with this picture? Some would say nothing, but for me, the penis has to go. I'm no longer comfortable with my body this way. I can't be comfortable as a woman with a penis. Right now I'm constantly worried that I'll be "found out." This is especially worrisome for me in the woman's bathroom, where a penis is about as welcome as a cat at the dog show. I'm sure that the surgery will improve this problem. I've been asked why I need a vagina if I don't want to have sex with men. That's so irrelevant! Besides, they obviously know nothing about lesbian sex and love-making. Bottom line, I'm a lesbian without a vagina! This just won't do. Luckily, my wait is almost over.