Counting The Days
I like to look at the "day counters" on this blog; they help to remind me where I've been and where I'm going. Today: 124 days since vaginoplasty; 4 months. The big significance of this is that now I'm supposed to be able to get by with once-a-day dilation. As freeing as twice-a-day dilation was as compared to three-times-a-day, once-a-day is going to be even better. I seem to have a way of letting things create unsolvable dilemmas for me. It was that way with expression of my new-found femininity and rock climbing and it has been this way for me with dilation and resuming my bike riding. The morning dilation was occupying my morning workout time and I just couldn't get enthusiastic about rising at 5am to do both. Now, I'm free once more to exercise in the morning with dilation pushed off for between work and bedtime. Finally I'll be able to attack the weight that's crept on since August and get comfortably back into my slacks. Yeah!
Also today: 14 days (actually, almost 15 days) until my labiaplasty and breast augmentation. We fly back to AZ on the 14th with surgery scheduled for the afternoon of the 16th. I'm not really looking forward to more surgery but I'm anxious to have it all over. I've heard many pros and cons about having the vag and lab surgery closely together or further apart in time. For me closer is the way to go. At present I feel like an unfinished project. I want to get this stuff finished and be able to move forward. Sure, I'm still not fully healed from August, there's still quite a bit of numbness, but at this point it would be hard to make it worse. Six months from now it should all be over and healed and I'll know what's what. On the down side it does mean taking a break from discovering my new capacities for pleasure. I've had some breakthroughs and some disappointments. I'll be "off limits" again while my labia heal. The breast aug is a whole new frontier with its own concerns. I'm concerned about loss of nipple sensitivity and I'm concerned with ending up too big. I'm also amazed by the mention in my pre-op paperwork that I'm supposed to go without a bra for 3 months following surgery. I really can't comprehend this as I pretty much figured I'd need increased support during the healing. Even now with my little breasts it can be uncomfortable to go without a bra. I can't imagine what it will be like after augmentation. Ouch?
Also today: 14 days (actually, almost 15 days) until my labiaplasty and breast augmentation. We fly back to AZ on the 14th with surgery scheduled for the afternoon of the 16th. I'm not really looking forward to more surgery but I'm anxious to have it all over. I've heard many pros and cons about having the vag and lab surgery closely together or further apart in time. For me closer is the way to go. At present I feel like an unfinished project. I want to get this stuff finished and be able to move forward. Sure, I'm still not fully healed from August, there's still quite a bit of numbness, but at this point it would be hard to make it worse. Six months from now it should all be over and healed and I'll know what's what. On the down side it does mean taking a break from discovering my new capacities for pleasure. I've had some breakthroughs and some disappointments. I'll be "off limits" again while my labia heal. The breast aug is a whole new frontier with its own concerns. I'm concerned about loss of nipple sensitivity and I'm concerned with ending up too big. I'm also amazed by the mention in my pre-op paperwork that I'm supposed to go without a bra for 3 months following surgery. I really can't comprehend this as I pretty much figured I'd need increased support during the healing. Even now with my little breasts it can be uncomfortable to go without a bra. I can't imagine what it will be like after augmentation. Ouch?
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