Not Quite Getting It

Michele and I spent Christmas day, Monday, and Tuesday visiting with her mom. On Tuesday morning I had a long, private talk with her mom. She knows that I'm transsexual and Michele explained to her what SRS is before we went out to AZ in August. So, I was quite surprised when she asked me when I adopted my kids. I explained that they are mine, that I am transsexual, that I am their father. She couldn't seem to wrap her head around this idea and asked if the kids know I'm transsexual. She asked what the kids call me. She went on to ask who is the woman that they stay with when they're not with me. I explained that she is their mother (I wish I had remembered to use the term "birth mother"). Again, she wasn't quite grasping the situation. I don't think we discussed this any further but I think we'll need to come back to it at a later date.

Another First

With womanhood comes all the things our mothers, sisters, and spouses have put up with for years. A month ago I had my first pelvic/speculum exam. Yesterday I had my first mammograms. With all the hype Michele had been putting out I was prepared for REAL PAIN! Instead, it turned out to be uncomfortable, but nothing more. I guess I won't need to repeat this for a few years. At that time we'll need to deal with the breast implants.

Although I've spent the last 17+ months living as a woman full time, at many times I'm still "Dad". My son still calls me "Dad" and my ex refers to me as "Dad" when talking with my son about me. At daycare I've gotten use to "Sammi, your dad is here!" This morning one of the little girls said "Goodbye Sammi's mommy." Maybe I've finally made this transition ;-)

32 Days and Counting

It's still 32 days until my second round of surgery. Today I paid my balance in full.

I'm certainly looking forward to the results of the labiaplasty and breast augmentation but I'm not looking forward to undergoing more surgery. As it is I'm still healing from my surgery in August. It's been almost 4 months but I still have lots of numbness. Many people have told me that it may take 6 months or more for all the numbness to go away. It seems likely that the labiaplasty will delay some of this healing. It's a price I'm willing to pay for a successful outcome.

More Electrolysis

I went today for more electrolysis “down below”. In preparation for the labiaplasty I need to clear off a 2cm area around my clitoris and any hair between my labia. As with the pelvic exam, things are pretty much still numb down there so most of it wasn’t at all painful. The exception was the area above my clitoris. Some of it was numb but some of it has full feeling and the electrolysis there was painful…but bearable. There's still about 6 weeks until my next surgery so we have another chance in about 4 weeks to clean up anything that we missed or that grows back. Now I’m torn between wanting the numbness to go away and wanting it to last for the next round of electrolysis.

My First Pelvic Exam

It’s been 3 months since my surgery. That means it’s time for my first pelvic exam. This happened on Tuesday. All in all, it was pretty uneventful. At this point I’m still pretty numb down there so I basically didn’t feel anything. I’m glad to know that everything inside is looking good. However, I’m upset to know that I have a few hairs inside. All that pain and suffering and we didn’t get it all :(